All about us!

It's been two years since I have updated this blog, busy is now my middle name and a lot has happened. This will be one of those super long posts but I am okay with it. I remind myself that I am doing this so that one day my kids can read this when they are older. So as is life we have good times and we have bad times, the last two months have been rough. Alex was diagnosed with colon cancer two years ago and unfortunately he passed away Aug 14, 2019 a day before my Links 4th birthday. Life has been so different with him being gone, we had his services last weekend and it was so hard to hear what people shared about him. We all love Alex and miss him so much but I know that he is in a better place with no pain. Monica has been as you can imagine in so much agony over losing her son. I try to be there for her as much as I can but she usually tries to just hold it all in, she gets that from her Mama, I wish I could just hug her and take all her pain away. We have Alex's picture r

So yes I did it again i totally forgot about my blog, well i guess if i have to be honest i didnt forget what actually happened is a bit different. Ive always thought of myself as a strong person and while there have been many situations in my life that havent been the greatest i felt like i came out better in the end. I wasnt going to allow my past to dictate my future, well that changed drastically. I feel like everything in my past finally caught up to me and i could no longer play the "im good" part. The last couple months have been hard, really really hard. There have been days when i dont even want to get out of bed but.... with 5 little precious/very active boys that wasnt feasible. So its taken me a lot to get to ok, this time i actually reached out and talked to people about my struggle and i dont think i could have done it without them. I have to say that Ricky was a big help in this whole struggle usually he just stares at me with this blank expression and leaves