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Well here we are all these months later and we are still struggling to lead normal lives. The kids are super resilient, they are doing much better than we are that's for sure. Well I should say that they are doing better than me. I think Ricky is fine, although he misses stuff his schedule is more so the same work, work and more work. He has taken time off from time to time, but maintains his schedule. I have been home with the kids doing a horrible job at playing teacher. I can not for the life of me get that part together, just kidding I can't get anything together. Okay well here goes the information on my boys. Thanksgiving was nice we spent it with my family at my Moms house. She cooked and I was still recovering from surgery so I took a charcuterie board which everyone loved.  Spending time with family is the best, even if there are differences in opinions or what not coming together and being together is soothing to the soul. Christmas was kind of funny, we were at home ...

            Well the election is over but the chaos is still rampant. It looks like we are about to go on yet another lockdown. Our numbers are high and just keep rising. In our small town the numbers don't seem to be getting higher but I think we are just throwing us in with our county. Julian, Jacob, Mason and Lincoln are all in school now. They go Thursday/Friday for about 3 1/2 hours, we will take it. They seem so much happier going to school. Oh how we all miss our old lives. The more time that passes the more of a memory that becomes and less of a reality for us. Damian stays home for school, there is no waiver for 7-12th grade he loves it and hates it at the same time. He enjoys being home but does not like that he can not be with his friends. I don't even know what to hope for anymore.  Mason is in Kindergarten and struggles with staying in his seat during zoom meetings but does really well in class. Julian and Jacob are just over being on...

       So I thought that by now life would be back to normal, jokes on all of us, its not. On a good note, Lincoln started school this past Thursday. He goes Thursday and Friday from 8:25-10:25. Mason starts next Thursday and then Jacob and Julian start on the 16th of November. Damian still does not have a start date or anything. It's really weird they have to all wear their masks in class but their classes are downsized by a lot Lincoln only has 7 students in his class. I am not sure how this will all play out for the rest of the year but it is kind of depressing. I regret not appreciating our former life. The presidential election is also going on right now and that in itself is insane. People are so horrible and racism has been somehow made a huge comeback, its actually really sad. We have been told by multiple people we need to prepare like end of times because after the election things will be crazy. Both sides are very intense, I would love to just skip to 2021...

Three months later and we are still here in quarantine. I think we kind of knew we would still be going through this but never really wanted to believe it. California had finally began opening and then boom, numbers went up and well here we are. School should be starting in two weeks and we just found out we are back to distance learning. The boys have for sure become fortnite experts and even typing that makes me cringe. Did I ever tell you how much I dislike doing nothing. Like the boys just sitting and doing nothing drives me crazy, I was seriously hoping by now life would be back to normal. Anyways ignore my negative Nancy comments. On the other hand we have been cleaning the house from top to bottom and its been amazing and soothing, and at times boring but we are getting it done. Family time has also been on the high end of our days. Ricky and I have been spending a lot more time than normal and at least for me its been so good. I remember talking about how much I wanted life to ...

So today is April 8, 2020. We still do not have flying cars or anything of the sort, you would think we would be more advanced but the only cool thing about this year is Apple fixed their bug and we can now face time with multiple people at the same time. It feels like instead of moving forward to bigger and better things we have reverted to the stone ages, what am I talking about? let me share with you what this new year has brought us. COVID19, which basically stands for Corona Virus 2019. Apparently brought to us by the nice people of Wuhan, China. There are so many jokes but I will spare you those. So we are literally quarantined. Schools shut down somewhere around the second week of March, and we began online distance learning, a makeshift home school of all things. Can I just say there is a reason I did not go into that field, this has been a mission and we are only on day 3 of it. So let me go back to a month ago when things were scary but we were still out and about enjoying ou...

It's been two years since I have updated this blog, busy is now my middle name and a lot has happened. This will be one of those super long posts but I am okay with it. I remind myself that I am doing this so that one day my kids can read this when they are older. So as is life we have good times and we have bad times, the last two months have been rough. Alex was diagnosed with colon cancer two years ago and unfortunately he passed away Aug 14, 2019 a day before my Links 4th birthday. Life has been so different with him being gone, we had his services last weekend and it was so hard to hear what people shared about him. We all love Alex and miss him so much but I know that he is in a better place with no pain. Monica has been as you can imagine in so much agony over losing her son. I try to be there for her as much as I can but she usually tries to just hold it all in, she gets that from her Mama, I wish I could just hug her and take all her pain away. We have Alex's picture r...

So yes I did it again i totally forgot about my blog, well i guess if i have to be honest i didnt forget what actually happened is a bit different. Ive always thought of myself as a strong person and while there have been many situations in my life that havent been the greatest i felt like i came out better in the end. I wasnt going to allow my past to dictate my future, well that changed drastically. I feel like everything in my past finally caught up to me and i could no longer play the "im good" part. The last couple months have been hard, really really hard. There have been days when i dont even want to get out of bed but.... with 5 little precious/very active boys that wasnt feasible. So its taken me a lot to get to ok, this time i actually reached out and talked to people about my struggle and i dont think i could have done it without them. I have to say that Ricky was a big help in this whole struggle usually he just stares at me with this blank expression and leaves ...