Three months later and we are still here in quarantine. I think we kind of knew we would still be going through this but never really wanted to believe it. California had finally began opening and then boom, numbers went up and well here we are. School should be starting in two weeks and we just found out we are back to distance learning. The boys have for sure become fortnite experts and even typing that makes me cringe. Did I ever tell you how much I dislike doing nothing. Like the boys just sitting and doing nothing drives me crazy, I was seriously hoping by now life would be back to normal. Anyways ignore my negative Nancy comments. On the other hand we have been cleaning the house from top to bottom and its been amazing and soothing, and at times boring but we are getting it done. Family time has also been on the high end of our days. Ricky and I have been spending a lot more time than normal and at least for me its been so good. I remember talking about how much I wanted life to slow down and it's actually happening, maybe not the way we imagined but i'll take it. So let's catch up last I came on here was April, so first thing Mason turned the big 5, wow! Time flies by quicker than I'd like that's or sure. We didn't host our usual huge non birthday party (I say non party for Ricky's nerves lol) It was just us but he had fun, it was of course a fortnite theme (insert eye roll) anyways it was a great time we served his favorite food and just hung out as a family. Then came Mothers day and we were home too, yay quarantine. Then Ricky's bday as well, which we had a small dinner for him we just invited his parents. Then came June and that brought heartache as well as more heat and uncertainty in general. Unfortunately my cousin Chris' wife Mercedes passed from colon cancer, yes the same cancer that took our Alex. This seems so unreal and so unfair. She has two little girls and they are so little, my heart aches for them and for her. I know leaving them was not in her plans. I don't understand why things happen the way they do. I always look for the happy ending at the end of the story but sometimes it never comes and we are left with a broken heart. So we are trying out hardest to help where ever we can with Penelope and Scarlet, we will never replace Mercy but my hope is that we can be good at just being there. One thing I want to tell the girls when they are older is their Mom fought to stay alive, she didn't give up she wanted to live for them. June has been an emotional month. I failed to mention Mercy passed on Alex's birthday June 1. We were at Monica's house celebrating him when we got the call that she passed. I'm grateful my Mom and sibling were with Chris and the girls when that happened. At least he wasn't alone. My brothers bday and then my Moms bday are in June as well. We took Mom out to eat and my sister Cindy and her kids joined us but that whole experience was a mess. The wait staff was so rude and we hadn't been out to eat at a restaurant since before the craziness began, our hopes were high for a nice meal but nope! So now we are in July. We are going back to closing everything the numbers of people infected and people dying is really high in California and of course our county is one of the ones with the highest so here we go round two of shut downs. We have done our best to stay home and try to be entertained. We have had friends over to swim and have gone to the lake, as well as traveled to L.A. I'm grateful for good friends. So life as we knew it has changed drastically and while we are so thankful that we are healthy we are sad that so much has changed. We are hopeful things will change at some point, but for now we will stay home and if we go out we wear our masks. We pray that everyone stays safe and that cancer disappears forever. I know that last part wont happen but I will always have hope that it does. 
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